Created on Dec 20xx
07:53AM
Hello new dear diary! Pa's banned all books inside the studio, and with it went my original paper diary. he said books were for losers, and that websites are “whats new”! this isn't really a website, but with how little this computer can do, it might as well be!! i'm still happy though, look at all the cool stuff i can write! awesome!
Created on Jan 20xx
12:09AM
Dear diary.. it’s my birthday!! finally i can stop telling people “My name is Ben! I’m 15!” because.. im 16 now! I asked pa if he’d ever take me to get a drivers licence - i hear all the kids get em when they're old enough - but dad said no. It was a little silly, i guess. we never leave the tower anyways. i did ask him if he knew how to drive, and he said he did, but that he hadnt needed to do it in a very long time. he didnt seem like he liked to talk about it too much. he got up and was about to leave but i still tried asking him what car he drove. he didnt answer me tho
Dad’s a little weird sometimes but i think its the normal type of weird. i never really had friends to ask them how their dads are, but things have always been weird around here, so i think that means its actually normal? uuuugh its so confusing. there was this time when i asked him why i had a dad but not a mom. i kept hearing that on tv, that youre supposed to have two. he said that i had a mom at first, and that now i have a dad. it was weird before, but he made it make sense. he makes things make sense, even if hes a little shy to talk about it somtimes. i think that's just it? maybe he's just shy! i hope one day he trusts me enough to make everything make sense.
oh also i got my own bedroom now! no more sleeping on the break room couches!! pa gave it to me as a "late birthday present". it's so small and cozy, but has a nice view to the ferris wheel!! i'm so excited to start decorating it!
Created on Jun 20xx
10:51PM
Dear diary, today was... woo!! It was a long day! But a good one.. i think! Pa says he's real proud of me. he thinks i'm all grown up, enough to hang around "the big boys"!! he just calls all his employees that haha! I cant believe i'm finally getting to meet other people who work at the studio! i thinkthey were all kinda scared of me since im pa's... but haha i'm just a little boy, there's nothing to be afraid of!! all the grown ups work much longer hours than me. the first shift was... exhausting, but pa trusts me! i wont let him down!
But it wasn’t all good. Pa’s also... im worried for him. i get that he doesnt wanna leave the tower, but the lower levels have been in the making for months now. place looks so dirty and abandoned, its kinda scary. but dad wont do anything about it he wont even go down there. he honestly barely leaves the filming set, and if he's not there, he's all locked up in his office... i think? i dont know. i never see him...like, going there, but everyone tells me he's always there. i dont have the time to check it out myself now.
what is he doing?
Created on Jul 20xx
04:42PM
Dear diary.. these arent great ice-breakers haha!! i should stop opening with that..
Anyways, uhh its been tough! but! im getting tougher too! im dealing with all the new guests from the guided tours like a boss! and ive started even taking shifts at the gift shop! isnt that neat? there’s so much cool stuff down there. i didnt know we had plushies of pa??? im snatching one for my collection haha. hopefully he wont make a fuss about it. ill just tell him those colorful little guys stole one or somethn. i also got to look at a bunch of older merch we still have leftovers from. lots of big tshirts to use as pajamas hehe!!
Speaking of old stuff, i found something in pa’s office the other day. he usually likes to keep one of each merch he makes, so i went to his office to drop some things i found and came across a funny scene. im assuming the little guys raided his office and nobody had come to clean the place yet. i was trying to tidy up the place a little and i found all these cool little trinkets!! i didnt know he collected stuff without his face on it! there were a bunch of broken, dirty little things like keys and bowties and rings. i put it all away where i think they used to be, and then i found this... i dont know what it was. it was this smoky dark piece of glass. i panicked at first, thinking they’d actually broken something, but things were just messy, not destroyed. it felt heavy in my hand. why did pa have all these things? i really dont like to snoop around, so i just dropped it in a drawer with the rest of it. i left and called someone to go clean it up.
Created on Oct 20xx
07:36PM
Hello diary!.. no that doesnt work either!!
Pa said we’re not doing anything for halloween this year. max we’ll throw some cheap decor on the news set and call it a day. i cant wait to see all the people that come over asking for candy! im not gonna be able to go since i got tours scheduled until noon, but i so wanna hand out candy to other kids, and see what they dress up as! i highly doubt everyone can afford pa’s “Big News Host Halloween Costume” for 49.99D$ heehee. i was complaining about this being so much work, but honestly you get used to it! plus, technically its a win-win! i make pa happy and get to see other kids my age on a regular basis! it doesnt get so lonely like that haha
but… i found something cool. pa apparently loves christmas, or at least he loves the decorations! found some in one of the big rooms we use to store set pieces and other junk for filming. dont ask me what i was doing there!! its business secrets!! haha just kidding i was looking for broken stuff to take to my room. but yeah i found this old dusty box in the veeeery back. it had someones name written on it but i couldnt tell what name it was. there were a bunch of decorations inside, like those balls you hang on the trees, and all the lights messily rolled up into a big knot. they were just old decorations, but i felt like i was going through someones belongings. like how many times have these been used? someone spent some lonely cold night looking at a big christmas tree, and maybe that made em feel better. whoever these belonged to, if not to dad, they sure must miss em. I snatched one of the plastic balls, a blue one, and left the rest as was. ill have to ask dad about it once he’s free from work.
Created on Dec 20xx
05:58PM
Dear friend.. eh i like that !! Dear friend..
Pa said today was gonna be a big day. he said my schedule was gonna change for the day, and that i was gonna stay at the giftshop for the whole day!! apparently we’re having visitors? pa said its those kids upstairs hed told me about. old friends of his he says. im gonna pick them up after my last shift at the tours and then stay at the shop the rest of the night for “safety reasons” whatever that means.
i dont usually talk about it a lot, but pa told me that he used to be friends with a “lightner” but that he hasnt seen them in a very long time. he thought they were gone, spoke of em as if they were. but, apparently they’re not! and they even brought their friends! im kinda excited ngl. i wonder what they’ll look like. i hope theyre bony and big like me so i dont feel out of place haha!
Created on Dec 20xx
12:24AM
Dear friend
Im writing in the giftshops computer. still not allowed to go to my room. these kids are… weird. especially the blue one. they came here looking for some.. dark fountain, whatever that is. im so confused. i thought they were pa’s friends..? maybe theyre angry that they havent talked in a while? but thats not the worst of it- they keep coming back here, not to buy stuff, but to talk to me! usually id be happy to talk to other people, but this .. lightner.. it scares me. they have pas eyes. like theyre ready to just take the world. but they look so tired too… and they just keep coming back here, giving me things and telling me how pas been lying to me my whole life. yeah, right!! im the one hes the most honest with, and i know when hes lying! he does it all the time on tv! i would know if my whole life was a lie!
but.. they just keep coming back, like a bad thought. im having bad thoughts. pa is weird i get it, but hes not.. he wouldnt do that. he wouldnt lie to me like that we’re friends!! best of friends!! i make him proud every day why would he lie to me? what could he even lie about? after theyre gone, im gonna sit down with pa and we’re gonna clear this whole thing up! if he did lie.. some stupid petty thing.. its okay! maybe he was just embarrassed about something he did? and didnt tell me? ill love him regardless! im sure this is all just a big misunderstanding, and we’re gonna get it solved! we just gotta talk about it.
ughh here they come agaiin.. i gotta go now, but i’ll tell you how it went later!
♪ glaciære - Dolphin ♪
